So.....I have a BIG decision
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I'm moving back to FREDONIA, NEW YORK!! (in 4 weeks)
The idea just came to me. When people used to say that God layed something on their heart, I would always just say "that's so cool". However, I had no idea what that meant or what that was like, until last week. I had recently had a job interview at a local law firm for a legal secretary position. I'm not trying to speak highly of myself, but I was perfect for the job! I studied for 3 years at the State University of New York at Fredonia for criminal justice, and I did an 3 month internship at the victim's assistance program, a unit of the district attorney. So law and criminal justice is my thing, it's what I do and love. I did not get the job because I don't have a degree. I have enough experience in a related field, yet I wasn't qualified for the job!! Someone I know got the job though, she has a bachelor's degree in a completely different field, and had to be trained for over 2 weeks.
Because of this I started thinking. I went to school for 3 years, in New York. I was 20 credits, so basically a year, away from graduating. It was really hard for me to be there for more then one reason but the big one was this guy I was seeing at the time. I thought it was love, he thought I was just a body he could use. I thought we were getting married when I found out that he cheated on me....with 13 different girls. They weren't just one night stands, they were relationships, some even long term!!! I was so hurt and devastated that I just couldn't deal with it. One day I decided that I wasn't strong enough to stay there, I was going to give him a second chance (even though he didn't deserve it AT ALL). I packed up my car with things I really needed, grabbed my 2 cats and Izzie and drove to Virginia and never looked back. About a month later, my mom, dad, sister and I went back, packed and cleaned my house (I had a 3 bedroom house there) and put it on the market. I temporarily moved into my sisters basement while I was looking for a place to live down in Virginia.
2 Years have passed since I moved and I love it here in Virginia. I went back to Fredonia past August because I was the maid of honor in my best friends wedding. It was so weird to be back...nothing had really changed but it was still strange. My friend was renting my house, so it was my house but not really...it was odd. My friend moved out of the house and its now just sitting there...empty, not getting sold! Its been for sale for 2 years and no one seems remotely interested, even though its the cutest house and I wish I could pick it up and move it to Virginia :)
I was going to start at Liberty University after the summer that I moved so I could still get my degree and graduate. Liberty wasn't taking as many credits as I would have wanted, but it was better then starting with 0. After enrolling as a residential student, I was told my GPA wasn't high enough and that I needed to go to community college first to get my grades up. So I enrolled in the most random classes. It felt like such a waste of money, just taking stupid classes for grades. I then realized, I liked working (or the making money part of that actually). I ended up dropping out of community college and I enrolled in Liberty's online program. I was supposed to start classes in March but something went wrong with my financial aid.
And in hindesight everything was lining up for me to move back to NY.
- My lease ends May 31st
- I have a house that I can live in until it gets sold
- My old school will clearly take all my credits
- I love the area
- It will not nearly be as expensive as it is if I went to Liberty
- I didn't get the job at the law firm
- I HATE BEING A HOUSEKEEPER!
I remember cleaning the dorm wishing I could go back to school and re-do things. And look at that, without actually praying about/for it, I'm getting a do over. I get to go back to school and be a student again.
I'm super excited (as you can tell). I really feel like this is what I am supposed to do! Izzie is so excited too...first off she was born in Fredonia, anddddd my awesome dad built a fence in my yard that she can play in!!
I do need some prayers as I am waiting to find out if I got accepted back into school. It won't be a huge problem if I didn't because I will this time go to community college up there and get some of my electives out of the way to get my GPA up. Yes I know I dropped out of a different community college but I wasn't really thinking about my education as I do now...how important it is to have a degree.
I cannot wait. I am moving May 19th...thats a month from now!! I have 4 weeks to pack everything up (and let me tell you, I have a lot of crap)!! It's weird I always thought I was moving further south then back up north, but if this is where God wants me, I'm going!
xoxo e
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